Thursday, June 25, 2009

come on already

OK, so if you ask my husband he would say that I was a bit OCD. I'm not. Well, not completely anyway. I like things in they're place and I love organization. I'm not always that way and I'm learning to deal with it as I get older. I am busy all the time and I don't always have time to organize.

But this is getting a bit rediculous. Its Thursday. Saturday hubby should be moving everything left here, out. Sunday I'll be cleangin my patootie off and Monday is for shampooing carpets and such. Tuesday is the last day and the walk thru. Then, freedom. OK, not freedom. But no apartment....ever!!

I'm a bit excited.

I have so many plans. I am picking out themes and colors for my boys rooms. I've always wanted a purple room. I really don't have a space to do that, so I get my laundry room to do what I want with. LOL. Maybe I should put a massage chair in there. Ha ha. Thats actually a good idea! But I'll get to paint it purple and do what I want. Yea!

So life has been hectic over the last few weeks. But I've really enjoyed this time with my husband. We've been together for 11 years now and you'd think we'd know every last thing and have the best relationship. But its taken a lot of years and ton of hard work to finally get along. LOL. Its not that bad. Anyway, for the first time in our marriage I feel like we are finally on the same page. One of us has always been reading ahead, or not following the 'outlilne', and after 9 years of marriage I really feel like this is the right time for us! We are happy, in love and so excited. Its fun to see Josh excited about something. He's not the 'get excited' type, so this is fun for me. He's been working sooo hard too. At work, and around here. I love it!

Here are a few pictures of the kiddos. Lucas is doing great. He's starting to sit up a bit. -If I prop he there- He can stay on his knees for a little while too. He's starting to put his knee up to get there on hus own too. I'm a proud mama. He's getting his 5th tooth in today too. We've noticed the drool the last few days and its just popping through. This time- no side effects! Yea!

Help me up!!

drool baby!

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Compromises and Excitement

Well, we did it. We bought a house. We are soo excited. We've been dreaming of this for years, but we've never been in a place where it could actually happen. We are finally stable enough as people to buy a house! :o)
I didn't think that we were ready to jump to this whole thing this year. But after sitting down with our cousin, the mortgage broker, I realized we could actually do this. So we found the perfect place a week after we were serisous. We made an offer after seeing it the first day and it was on. There was a little bit of a bidding war with another offer and at the end of it, our offers were neck and neck. So the seller talked with a lawyer and they chose the other offer. We were so bummed.
So we started our search again. This time expading our search area beyond where we really really wanted to be. We knew that if we looked a bit further we could get more for our money. So we started looking in Bonney Lake. Its about a 10 minute drive from where we are now. So its relly not that bad. After seeing 3 other houses and really liking them, the last one won. We made an offer that day. Around here you jump fast, or its gone. We learned that on the first house. Well, the offer was accepted with all of our terms. We asked for a lot, but in the end the seller got what they wanted too. Money.
So the compromises are:
We really wanted like an acre of land. Well, thats basically impossible here unless you are serisouly in the country, or get a big time fixer. Neither of which we wanted. That is why the first house was perfect. It wasn't a fixer and it had an amazing yard.
We really, well I really, wanted to live in the valley. Basically where we were living. Close to family and friends. And closer to church. Bonney Lake is not where I wanted to be.
In the end, we got a beautiful house that fits our needs, had a nice yard that will be fenced in, in Bonney Lake.
Bonney Lake has everything you need and more. 3 grocery stores, Lowes, Home Depot, movie theatre, Target, Applebees, 2 Starbucks, tons of fast food and a Walmart. OK, I think I just sold myself again on Bonney Lake. Haha.
The house is also brand new. Its in a development which we never said we'd live in. But its a corner lot with a great yard. Its next to a lake, ok pond, and its out near a small forrest. Its great.
So in 2 weeks (ack!) we'll be moving out of this apartment and into...wait for it..... my inlaws house. LOL. Our closing date isn't until the 15th of July. We're breaking our lease, so we have penalities and such, so we're saving a whole months rent by living with them for 2 weeks. Oh it'll be fun, thats what I keep telling myself and Alice anyway.
So thats it for now. The next time you see pictures of the place will be moving day! Yea!!

Thursday, June 4, 2009

The Struggle


I struggle weekly with being a mom.

Growing up all I ever did was play house. I was the mom to all the neighborhood kids. I was mom to the dogs, cats, whomever would play with me. I always dreamed of blissful motherhood. As I grew older and struggled to concieve, I pictured beautiful, talented amazing kids growing older, being popular and becoming doctors.

As the years went on, I gave birth to the most beautiful baby in the world. (Its true) He was so easy, content and healthy. I would get stopped every day and be told how beautiful he was, even by men. Then he grew. He's now 3 1/2. What a crack up. He drives me nuts, he can be such a brat, but he's hilarious and I love him to death. I wouldn't trade him for anything. (Most of the time)

A few more years went by and I gave birth to another child. A sweet baby. But completely different than child #1. He is not healthy, not easy. Of course, I think he's beautiful. But this one has thrown me for a loop. He challenges me daily. But I love him more than anything.

My dreams of motherhood were nothing like I am experiencing. Its a hard reality. I must admit I do not have the kid who throws a tantrum on the floor of the store because he isn't getting a candy bar. He might try, but I would NOT let that happen. I swore I wouldn't and I've stuck to it. But by all means, I don't have the quiet kid who sits and always says please and thank you every single time. There are times I think I might break. There are times I think I seriously might lose my mind. There are times I think I want to quit. This is not easy. Period.

I have a cousin with Down's Syndrome. He was so funny. We would always have such a fun time with him when he came to visit. I recall a conversation about him with my dad when I was probably 14 or so. I remember saying that I don't think I could handle having a kid with Downs. But my dad said enouragingly, 'Of course you could. And you would do so great!'. What? Little does he know...... Just kidding.

Being Lucas mom is hard.

Being Lucas' mom is rewarding.

Being Lucas' mom is a struggle.

Being Lucas' mom is so amazing.

I love it. (Most of the time)

I don't think that I've ever gone through that 'woe is me' bit. Ok, I did. way back in the beginnging when I was pregnant. But not since Lucas was born. I do go through the, 'I don't think I'm cut out for this' bit though.

A few weeks ago when I was with my mom I told her that I didn't understand why God gave me Lucas. I am not patient, or kind hearted. She said to me 'I think I am patient and kind hearted, and I don't think I could go through it either'. Thanks mom. LOL. She saw first hand how hard it can be. I was in NY for 5 days and day 3 he was sick.
That next week as I talked with my friend Jenni, I told her what I said. She told me 'God probably gave you Lucas to make you patient and kind hearted'. Well said Jenni. Well said.

This is just a glimpse inside my head. I go back and forth every single day. I don't understand how I'm going to do this for the rest of my life. And then I am so thankful for that little boy that I forget about the work that comes with him.

This was a crazy post. I understand that. But welcome to my world! ;o)

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

May Pictures

Preschool Mother's Tea/Program
Joshua being a 'hero'
Lucas riding a tricycle Totally GQ
At the ocean, being such a boy

Monkey man
Uncle Joel
Packed up and ready to go
ceiling fans are so cool
My friend Katie and I
Lucas hanging with Maddie
Lucas enjoying the finer things in life